The ups and downs

Towards the end of last week, I was starting to feel better. Then yesterday, the queasiness was back in full force. So much, in fact, that I was considering working from home for part of the day. I was going to let my boss know and I thought that would be a good lead in to telling him the news. But, every time I went down to his office, he was either on the phone, talking with someone else, or left the building completely. So, I never had a chance to talk to him. So, I decided to stick it out at the office yesterday and I was feeling better in the afternoon.

This morning, I woke up feeling fine. So, it really does vary from day to day now. I’ve gone from feeling crappy every day to maybe only half the time. That’s improvement! I have also noticed that I’m not quite as zombie-like these days. Still tired, but not nearly to the same degree. I guess I am only a week away from the second trimester – yay!

I was initially thinking I’d wait until after my appointment on Friday before I spilled the beans at work, but there is only a chance that we can hear the heartbeat at this point in the pregnancy anyway. And since I am still feeling queasy off and on, and my belly is growing, I know the baby is still doing okay. So, even in the event that we can’t hear the heartbeat on Friday, I’m still going to want to spread the news. I know logically that at this point, the chances of a miscarriage are quite low. Most miscarriages happen before a woman even knows she’s pregnant. After that, it seems like there is an increased risk before about the 10 week mark. My doctor did say, once you get to 13 weeks, the risk goes WAY down, and I’m almost there! And, heaven forbid, if I did have a miscarriage this late in the game, I think I’d want my boss to at least know since I would probably need a couple days off.

So, I think I will tell my boss this week, likely today or tomorrow. I’m really not looking forward to that conversation, but I will be so glad to get it over with. Since we’re such a new company (2 years old), I will be the first pregnant employee, so I really don’t know how he’ll react. My boss is a very nice and reasonable guy, so I’m not really sure why I’m so nervous. And when you look at our company of 12 employees, 5 of us are women, and 4 of the 5 of us are in our mid to late 20’s and either married or common-law. So, if my boss was smart, he’d realize this was going to happen at some point in the near future!

EDIT 12:28pm

Well, my boss left the office for the rest of the day, so I guess I waited too long to be able to tell him today! I will try to track him down tomorrow to tell him the news. That will give me an extra day to get up my nerve. Unless he does the disappearing act again tomorrow, at this rate, I may have to wait until next week anyways ;)