13 weeks!

We're at the tail end of the 1st trimester - 2nd trimester starts on Friday!!!  Baby is the size of a peach this week :)

I have definitely been feeling better lately - have some energy back, which is nice.  Julie spilled the beans to someone at church on Sunday - I am actually very surprised she kept the secret for so long!

Yesterday, we had a sad day in our house.  We had to put our cat Gino down.  He had a urinary track blockage, so same thing we went through with Smokey 5 years ago.  Because Gino is already a senior cat, we decided we didn't want to put him (or ourselves) through all that stress again.  It was awful when we went through it with Smokey - for weeks, we didn't know if he was going to make it and we had to monitor him very closely.  I was a wreck for weeks.

So, the vet basically told us we had to decide what we wanted to do within a couple of hours since Gino was in obvious pain and distress.  Either we spend the $1,500 to have the blockage cleared (although there is no guarantee that it will work long-term) or we put him down.  So, we talked about it and decided it was time to put him down.  If we was younger, we may have decided to have the procedure, but Gino was already near the end of his days.  So, we decided to put him down.  It was really hard.  Intellectually, I know we did the right thing, but it was hard emotionally.  I had a very teary day.  And now poor Smokey doesn't know what to think.  He keeps wandering around the house looking for his friend.

Glad that's over

This morning, I was feeling really nervous and anxious about telling my boss the news, so I decided to just take a deep breath and do it (I wasn't originally planning to tell him until next week).  It went surprisingly well.  My boss and I have had 'issues' lately where I feel like I have been treated very unfairly over the last year or so, so I was feeling very strongly that I should tell him my news before my annual appraisal meeting, which is supposed to be any day now.

Well, as soon as I told him, his face lit up and he congratulated me.  I am so relieved!  He said we'll figure out over the next few months how to distribute my workload.  He also said he'll leave telling everyone else up to me whenever I feel it is appropriate.  I said I would tell everyone over the next week or 2.  We have our annual general meeting next Friday (June 1st), so I am thinking that would be a good opportunity since everyone will be together, so I won't have to tell everyone separately.  And, that will officially be my first day of the 2nd trimester, so good timing.  I'm a little nervous telling everyone before we've heard the heartbeat, but really, I'm sure everything is fine.  If it wasn't, I'd have symptoms by now.  I'm taking my growing belly as a good sign!

One week left in the first trimester - hard to believe it's been 8 weeks since we found out.  How we've kept it a secret this long is beyond me.  At playgroup yesterday (with my church mommy friends), one of them said to me "so, you think you'll have more kids?" and I responded with the vague "yes, someday" kind of answer.  I can't wait to share the news at the next playdate in a couple weeks (we have them every other Wednesday morning).

12 weeks!

Yay! We are just a couple weeks away from telling the world! I may tell work next week, I'll see how it goes. Our appointment to hear the baby's heartbeat is in less than 2 weeks; I can't wait!!!

I am starting to feel better now. The queasiness isn't nearly as severe and I am starting to get some energy back too. I think I am really starting to show now, so I'm sure people won't be surprised when I share the news. One woman in my small group at church ran into my mom at an event last week and said to her "C is expecting, isn't she" more of a statement, not a question. My mom didn't know what to say, so this lady said "I figured she wasn't telling people yet". My mom said I would be annoucing this at the end of the 1st trimester, so in a couple of weeks. This lady said she could tell that I was pregnant. Now, she is a doula, so her whole career is based on pregnancy, so I'm sure she is very in tune with women's shapes, etc.

I had a wonderful long weekend at the cottage - we were there from Saturday morning until yesterday afternoon and it was glorious! I didn't want the weekend to end!

11 weeks!

Only 29 weeks to go! :)

I'm getting closer and closer the end of the first trimester.  I can't wait until we hear the baby's heartbeat!

On the weekend, I got out all my maternity clothes and tried everything on.  Most things fit, which is good.  Everything except for 3 pairs of pants fit, so I'm happy with that.  I realized that this time, I will need more summer stuff (I didn't have any summer stuff last time really) and a couple more pairs of pants.  And a maternity bathing suit.  I was able to get away without one last time since I wasn't big until the fall and winter, but this time, I swim at the Y and intend to do so all through my pregnancy.  Not to mention, I will be big this summer too, so I will need a bathing suit to swim in at the cottage and my parents pool.  So, I am planning a maternity clothes shopping day in June.

I have been feeling a little better this past week.  The queasiness still comes and goes, but I have slightly more energy and the queasiness has been less severe.  So, I think I am starting to feel back to my old self again.  I still go to bed quite early, but I am able to function at work again, so that's good.  There were a few weeks where I felt like I wanted to crawl under my desk and take a nap every afternoon.

Julie is still asking every day "Is the baby out yet?"  Too cute!  I am really surprised that she hasn't spilled the beans to anyone at church or small groups or anything.  Only a couple more weeks to hang onto the secret and then we can start spreading the good news :)

10 weeks!

I'm at 10 weeks as of today!  YAY!  Only 30 weeks to go ;)  Only a few more weeks until I reach the 2nd trimester - officially, that is at 13 weeks, 3 days, so I will get there on June 1st.

I've had an okay week.  I have really been struggling lately with being extremely tired and queasy.  I told a few people at work on Friday since I was supposed to go to a site on Thursday of this week, and I just can't do it given how awful I have been feeling.  So, I told 3 people in total (started with HR), and they all know it is confidential still.  They were all very happy for me and they said it is no problem that I don't go to that site, they will send someone else.  What a relief!

I am really excited for Friday because in our small groups (sort of like a Bible study, only way more fun than that sounds), we finally get to see our music videos!  Each small group made a music video and we finally get to see them all and vote.  One group did Weird Al's "White and Nerdy" - that is going to be hilarious!  I think they are all going to be funny!  Our church is so much fun; I love that place.  I'm so glad we found a church that we enjoy going to and feels like 'home'.

The drama never ends around here!

Yesterday, my parents' dog Koby was very sick.  He was just laying on the ground all day, wouldn't eat his supper, and wouldn't drink anything.  This is very unlike him.  He had killed a groundhog on the weekend, and had some bites from that, so we were concerned that he caught something.  All Koby's shots were up to date, so at least we weren't too worried about something like rabies.  My mom was up all evening last night worried and was afraid to go to bed because she was so concerned.  But, he wasn't whimpering and his breathing was normal, so she was finally able to go to sleep.

She took him to the vet this morning and sure enough, Koby has an infection from the groundhog bites.  They gave him some antibiotics and said he should bounce back within 24 hours.  So, I'm sure by tomorrow, he'll be back to his old self.  My poor mom though, she has been through an ordeal and barely slept last night!  And of course, you always think the worst in these types of situations.

In other news, I am going to tell HR at my office about the pregnancy tomorrow.  I really have to.  I am being sent to a site on Thursday of next week that used to be contaminated and I am really not sure if it is safe for me to go to.  I really don't want to take a chance.  Not to mention with how queasy I've been feeling, I really can't spend a day out in the field right now.  Maybe in a few weeks, but not now. So, I have to come clean because I really can't go to a site that was formerly contaminated.  It has been remediated, but can they really guarantee that is safe for a pregnant woman in the 1st trimester???  Figures, I haven't been to a site in months, maybe longer, and then of course they want to send me NOW.  So, I'm going to tell HR what's going on and we'll go from there.

9 weeks and counting

The baby is the size of a grape this week!

I’m at the point where this doesn’t seem quite ‘real’.  It has been almost 5 weeks since I had a positive pregnancy test and I still have another almost 5 weeks to wait until we get to hear the heartbeat.  That’s a long time to wait!  I guess I just assume that everything is okay in the meantime?  It’s difficult to wait so long!

And the only people that know at this point are family and close friends.  So, I am excited to be able to tell the world!  We’ll be making this public after we hear the heartbeat, which should be at our appointment on June 4^th.

I have been feeling very queasy lately.  The last 3 days or so have been the worst so far.  My midwife says the sickness usually peaks around 8 or 9 weeks and then starts to get better.  So, anytime now!  I have also been completely exhausted.  I had to nap on both Saturday and Sunday just so I could feel like a human again.  I have been going to bed between 8:30 and 9pm every night and I still find it hard to get up at 6am for work.  I hope I get some energy back soon!  I remember with Julie, I was really tired in the 1^st trimester, but felt great in the 2^nd.

I am also very busy right now at work and with my courses.  I have one large assignment for my current course I need to get done tomorrow.  Then, on the weekend, I will have to do next week’s work since I need to spend next Monday and Wednesday studying for my midterm on Wednesday evening.  I will be relieved when my exam is over!  My next course starts on the 11^th, so I will be taking 2 at once after that.  Needless to say, I won’t be taking another course on until July when my current one is wrapping up.  3 at once would be too much – 2 I can hopefully handle.  We’ll see!